if only...

So, yesterday was my 1st day of work. I know that most of you out there might think this a bit weird, but I really enjoyed it. My co-employees were very accepting and social, my boss is honest, I am finally going to have some health coverage, and if things get too monotonous I can always walk over to Chris's desk and give him the double finger. Oh, and I got a Dell Latitude laptop on my 1st day!! It came with 1G of memory, a sweet ass briefcase, and doubles of all the necessities. Not to mention, its only 1.2 inches thick. For a computer geek like me...that is gold!

It seems as though I am never satisfied with the layout of my blog. In all actuality, I find it rather fun to create and re-shape. Unfortunately, I am unable to stop my mind from coming up with new ideas, so nearly every week you'll find some new alteration.
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Tommorrow is my final day of complete freedom, before my long trip to the middle. I am going to begin by sleeping in, something I never get to do anymore. Then, I will procede to step 2, which is playing X-box the remainder of the day. Of course, I will break for an occasional act of grindage, and napage. I'll cap the day off with a live dosage of JEW. It'll be great!! One day I will look back upon these days and wish, but for now....I'll pass them right by.
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See ya Greer. You will be missed.

Seriously people....NASCAR is not a sport!!

The Mavs explode with 74 2nd half points, leading them to a 119-113 victory over the Suns. Finley's O is returning at exactly the right time. The Dirk/Jet combo, coupled with solid perfomances by Howard & Dampier have the Mavs wrapping up a 4-0 road trip, which visited three elite teams. Very impressive.

There's a passage I got memorized. Ezekiel 25:17. "The path of the righteous man is beset on all sides by the inequities of the selfish and the tyranny of evil men. Blessed is he who, in the name of charity and good will, shepherds the weak through the valley of the darkness. For he is truly his brother's keeper and the finder of lost children. And I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger those who attempt to poison and destroy my brothers. And you will know I am the Lord when I lay my vengeance upon you." I been sayin' that shit for years. And if you ever heard it, it meant your ass. I never really questioned what it meant. I thought it was just a cold-blooded thing to say to a motherfucker before you popped a cap in his ass. But I saw some shit this mornin' made me think twice. Now I'm thinkin': it could mean you're the evil man. And I'm the righteous man. And Mr. 9mm here, he's the shepherd protecting my righteous ass in the valley of darkness. Or it could be you're the righteous man and I'm the shepherd and it's the world that's evil and selfish. I'd like that. But that shit ain't the truth. The truth is you're the weak. And I'm the tyranny of evil men. But I'm tryin', Ringo. I'm tryin' real hard to be a shepherd.

The 90's were a great decade for films. In fact, I would go so far as to label it "The best 10 years of cinema." Granted, there are tons of great movies from other time periods, but I find that most of my top 25 can be traced back to the 90's. I would like to think that this period flourished with great directors, unique scripts, and accomplished actors, but the truth is that this is the time when I began to understand ideas such as sub-plots, steady cam shots, irony, satire, aesthetics, cinematography, and metaphorical relationships. I grew up... with these films.

Pulp Fiction (94)
Swingers (96)
Forrest Gump (94)
Fight Club (99)
Rudy (93)
Goodfellas (90)
Seven (95)
Bottle Rocket (96)
Tombstone (93)
Groundhog Day (93)
the Usual Suspects (95)
Grosse Pointe Blank (97)
Immortal Beloved (94)
Reservoir Dogs (92)
Romeo + Juliet (96)
Braveheart (95)


...just to name a few.....man, there are tons more, but I'm tired.

So, its been nearly a year now, but I finally got a job! Thanxxx to Chris I got hooked up with an accounting type job. True, its not what I was exactly looking for, but it will more than pay the bills. Plus, it will allow me some financial room to head back to school, see a doctor, and start putting away for the future. Most importantly, I will be given opportunity. I kept saying that all I needed was a chance.....and I'll show the world what I am made of. Opportunity knocks.

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Watch out Mapquest...Google Maps has entered the game, and they have some clever ideas of their own.

Revenge of the Right Brain
Logical and precise, left-brain thinking gave us the Information Age. Now comes the Conceptual Age - ruled by artistry, empathy, and emotion.

Life is a process. Every change is simply a catalyst for another change. Unfortunately, there is no way to predict the direction, magnitude, interval, intensity, or timing of each change. Sure, there are a vast number of theories that attempt to calculate the possible outcomes of each function, but in the long run we are just players in a giant lottery.

Each day we pick our numbers, and the rest of the time is spent waiting....wondering what will be next. A lucky few will actual make themselves believe that they are in complete control of the path that they so confidentially walk down. Perhaps they have simply figured out which numbers to pick. Or perhaps these are the few that have come to terms with the nature of this fortuitous design. Either way, the keyword is "few"; leaving the rest of the world to face the wake.

How is one suppose to accept their own inability to control? When is the time to lobby change?

07 - 55 - 32 - 14 - 05

Super Bowl thoughts:

- The score at halftime should have had Philly up by 2, maybe even 3 TDs. Alas, they only countered their opponents mistakes with mistakes of their own. In any game, much less the Super Bowl, you must win the turnover battle.

- Now, I know this is McNabb's first Super Bowl game, and I think he is very talented, but his strength in completion percentage quickly became his weakest link. He was not calm, and it showed. Passes were high, short, and behind; which initiated some amazing catches. The Donovan jitters combined with a lack of running game lead to a great decrease in the variability of the offense. Of course, those two touchdowns passes in the middle of the endzone were perfect....perfect.

- Everyone has their theories on "how", but no matter what, the Pats just find a way to win. (his name was Deon Branch)

- The Eagles D was very, very impressive during the 1st half. After halftime they seemed to tire out, due to the inefficiency of the offense. I was really expecting the Eagles secondary to be a powerful force....what a let down.

- TO is the best receiver in the NFL. Oh, and Philly, please trade Pinkston for Rod Gardner.

- Remember when Super Bowl commercials were funny? What a waste.

- The halftime show was probably the best I have ever seen. Thanxxx Paul.

someone get me this.

Sun is shining in the sky, There ain't a cloud in sight
It's stopped rainin' Everybody's in a play
And don't you know, It's a beautiful new day.

"Its gonna be cold.
Its gonna be grey.
And its gonna last you the rest of your life."